I think a lot. I think too much. I'm a person who could sleep with ease but no when it comes to think about this matter that I wish I found the way out. But untill today, untill this moment, I found none. I just don't wanna fight anymore don't wanna see that face of yours anymore, the face that full of hatred and that time, love isn't there in your eyes. Love is just not there. Love is lost because what you've been thinking of at that moment is I don't give you 'that'. And because of one reason you stopped. And you did. You stopped looking me in the eye with love, you have no mercy on me anymore.

You're ready to let me go even you have promised me that you never want to do that. You stop all of it. At the end, I'm just a human. I'm just a girl.

     You told me that I don't know you well but I think you're the one who don't know me well. But I don't wanna say it. There's no point, because everything I say or explain is doesn't botter you at all. Doesn't make sense to you at all. Yes, our world is different. So many differences till it doesn't fits you even one. We came from different background but I don't think it's a problem the thing is, how we adapt or force those differences in us. There are many couples out there who came way too different from us. But they manage and get together and still holding hands till now. Do you ever think why we both met ? We both different. Don't you ever think of that dear ? Please think about it.

     Neither of us is right or wrong. We both are one. If one of us is wrong then we both are wrong. If one of us is right the we both are right. Or even win or lose. We always had this problem huh ? The big reason why am I writing this is, I just can't believe that you return back my gift. My bracelet that suits you well :') You even return the lanyard that I have been thinking to give you since you always show up your ID. I just wanna be useful for you in such a way but sadly now it doesn't matter for you though. Why did you do that ? If it's dont good enough just tell me. I'll bring you another. For you :( Not having 'that' doesn't mean I don't love you. It's just too many things I need to consider before. In other word, I'm afraid and I'm sorry for not being your dream girl. I will never be :( But you won't understand.

     It's hurts a lot damn a lot when you returned those. It even hurt me in the deepest of my heart I ever could imagine when you said that 'I already hate you' to me. Damn hurt for god's sake. I never thought that you would say that. Never. It's hurt till I'm weak and my walls are breaking like the ice breaks and sink in the cold ocean. But mine is a dark-colded ocean. Too cold too dark to be seen. You don't know how much I love you. How tall I have built my stairs of love for you in my heart just so I thought one day I could bring you there and we could go up together till the peak and see the entire if the world where no one could see us. You just don't know that. 

      You're the one who set it up, now you're the one who make it stop. I'm the who's feeling lost right now. Just remember how we get this far. Just remember you word your promises. To me.